When she finally sits again it's with the air of someone who's spent all of their energy in one fell swoop. She doesn't crumple so much as deflate, elbows on her knees and face in her hands.
She doesn't say anything for a long time. There's very little she can say.
The whole point had been of course that James had changed, that he had become something different, and she'd believed him. Believed him because it was what she needed, in the wake of Severus being unable to change then, in the remains of ripping out a piece of herself to split from him. She feels dull and stupid in the wake of it, and sharply conscious of everything it means.
I would never she begins to think but doesn't express because what good would it do now, after everything.
"I was so stupid," she mutters finally, more to herself than anything: stupid for thinking he'd change, stupid for the mistakes that led to their deaths, stupid, stupid, stupid.
Blind, maybe.
She laughs quietly, bitter and mirthless, without lifting her head. She doesn't know what else to say.
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When she finally sits again it's with the air of someone who's spent all of their energy in one fell swoop. She doesn't crumple so much as deflate, elbows on her knees and face in her hands.
She doesn't say anything for a long time. There's very little she can say.
The whole point had been of course that James had changed, that he had become something different, and she'd believed him. Believed him because it was what she needed, in the wake of Severus being unable to change then, in the remains of ripping out a piece of herself to split from him. She feels dull and stupid in the wake of it, and sharply conscious of everything it means.
I would never she begins to think but doesn't express because what good would it do now, after everything.
"I was so stupid," she mutters finally, more to herself than anything: stupid for thinking he'd change, stupid for the mistakes that led to their deaths, stupid, stupid, stupid.
Blind, maybe.
She laughs quietly, bitter and mirthless, without lifting her head. She doesn't know what else to say.