I'm aware. [ Severus is not actually giving him a moral poking. The ground he has to stand on there isn't terribly solid. ] I've wondered if it makes the way you interact with me different than someone else, though.
[ There's a moment of debristling, grateful for the shift back in tone. ]
I think that may depend on you as much as it may depend on me. We are not all the sum of the things we have done and the things we remember, or even the things we think. As much as Erik may complain, we would not be the friends we are if I did not look into the heart of him. In contrast, I rarely ever read Raven.
Suspicion against telepathy spans universes it seems. Neither of us need marks on our arms to generate it. Also you get on with me perfectly fine, and neither of us cheat at all. You sell yourself short, my friend.
[ There's a delay. Charles is probably not surprised; it's becoming an issue, he knows. And he's already told Shepard, more or less. ]
Yes. I made mistakes as a child. But the war began when I was nine years old and I was involved with it by twelve, so age doesn't matter and innocence is imaginary. I told myself then I didn't have a choice, but the truth is I didn't want one. It's hard to have perspective when you're that small and don't have the tools to manage your anger.
Children developmentally do not have the capacity to make these decisions - it is less about innocence or absolution as it is fact. As a young man, you have made other choices. You talked about your ability to resist.
I wanted to live openly, I wanted our government dismantled and rebuilt, I wanted a dozen other things that were far less idealistic that I have no excuse for. But it turns out I don't have the stomach for genocide after all.
Wizards don't do anything half way. Unfortunately.
I didn't want you to know. Or anyone, frankly, but it seems to continue to be an issue from people being nosy or hysterical or over bloody compassionate or whatever the hell else.
[ It'd have been nice to keep his fucking cover. Thanks Sirius. ]
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When I speak of ignorance I do not mean to imply I plunder every mind that crosses my path.
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I think that may depend on you as much as it may depend on me.
We are not all the sum of the things we have done and the things we remember, or even the things we think. As much as Erik may complain, we would not be the friends we are if I did not look into the heart of him. In contrast, I rarely ever read Raven.
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When it got out that I'm an Occlumens, at home, many people thought I should be sent to prison.
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Also you get on with me perfectly fine, and neither of us cheat at all. You sell yourself short, my friend.
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[ People really, really don't trust him. ]
You've got odd standards.
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[ And he is circling this other topic, this topic they keep brushing against, the one that Snape asked him not to ask about. ]
Your affiliations?
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Yes. I made mistakes as a child. But the war began when I was nine years old and I was involved with it by twelve, so age doesn't matter and innocence is imaginary. I told myself then I didn't have a choice, but the truth is I didn't want one. It's hard to have perspective when you're that small and don't have the tools to manage your anger.
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You talked about your ability to resist.
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I've been told that in the future I attempt to teach it to someone else, but that it goes terribly because I'm an impatient prick.
[ ANYway that's why people hate him. ]
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What made you turn your coat?
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And I am also very sorry that the lines were drawn in that way.
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I didn't want you to know. Or anyone, frankly, but it seems to continue to be an issue from people being nosy or hysterical or over bloody compassionate or whatever the hell else.
[ It'd have been nice to keep his fucking cover. Thanks Sirius. ]
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Are people trying to be friends with you or something
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Some of it has to be the ship.
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What happened?
[ BECAUSE APPARENTLY SNAPE IS IN THE MOOD TO ANSWER QUESTIONS SO CHARLES IS MAKING THE MOST OF IT ]
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[ STOP THAT ]
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[ Occasionally he is still 24 years old and it's kind of startling ]
Did you read Shepard's report?
[ IS THERE ANYTHING HE CAN SAY TO GET OUT OF THIS NOW ]
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