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SEVERUS SNAPE

50000volts: (noble sacrifice always makes me cry)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-12 08:07 am (UTC)(link)
"Near is a relative kind'a term," Darcy supplies in a jittery stammer. "Not near enough to hurt me. I just- I just-" She finally drags herself away far enough to wipe at her eyes and face. "This is fucking embarrassing. I just..." She lets her arms drop uselessly to her sides with a dull slap against the sides of her thighs. "Panicked."

Small hands ball into fists on either side, the nails biting into her palms feel like deserved punishment, if inadequate. She's quiet for a long time, just focused on getting her breathing under control, while obviously intending to elaborate. "When he changed..." she begins again, quietly and trailing, "It was awful. He wasn't my friend anymore. And I thought I would be cool about it. I thought that I would just watch, and keep him safe." Eyes squeeze shut tightly against a renewed onslaught of fresh tears. "I couldn't even do that."
50000volts: (light and shadow)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-12 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"Then why do I feel so shitty about it?" Only when her chin is tucked into her chest, like a small bird huddling up against a storm, does she open her eyes again. She feels like the weight of her stare could bore a hole in the floor. Maybe if she were a bit more spectacular. "I feel like I failed him. He gave me every single opportunity to walk away, and I didn't take it because I thought I had this." She lets out a derisive sound somewhere between a snort and a laugh. "I was fuckin' wrong about that."
50000volts: (push up glasses; self-conscious)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-12 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
He's really good at this, she thinks. The motion of reaching up to lay her hand over his on her shoulder is a little awkward, she only glances at the contact out of the corner of her eye in quiet half-acknowledgement. "I'm really sorry I didn't listen to you. I know that probably doesn't mean much, but you were totally right and I was completely wrong, and-" Babbling is cut short in favor of another deep, steadying breath. "No, I can't promise that I won't disregard your advice again, but I can offer a voucher good for a lifetime of I-told-you-so's." Haaa... See? She's trying to resurrect her humor.
50000volts: (stunned)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
Darcy's head lifts again finally, eyes big and still shining with tears kept barely at bay, not quite believing. "You really mean that?" She's surprised, obviously so, and it betrays the fact that she at least feels she isn't thought terribly highly of by some of her peers when it comes to competency. She's inclined to agree with them most of the time.
50000volts: (puppy eyes)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
"I..." Back to reality, a little less stunned by his views of her. That surge of fear is ebbing away, leaving behind an adrenaline rush that's also fading slowly. "Guess you're right." She remembers her hand on his then, and gives it a squeeze. Then, she meets his eyes. "Thanks," Darcy murmurs tipping her head to one side slightly and swaying forward just the barest bit. Almost expectantly, but only in the slightest way. "For everything."
50000volts: (concerned)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 06:41 am (UTC)(link)
Darcy shakes herself out of whatever moment that was she was just having. Can she help it if her instinct after being scared out of her mind is to kiss someone senseless? She doesn't think so. But at least it hasn't come to that. Blinking several times, she has the courtesy to keep looking him in the eyes as she admits, "You're right. It was really fucking scary, and what I did was really stupid, and I'm just incredibly lucky you aren't screaming at me." Then she looks away, settling on a point somewhere at his shoulder or just past it. "Thanks for that, too."
50000volts: (phhh)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 07:08 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm sure it was tempting." Helpful or not. Just take the thanks where it's offered, Snape. Jeez.

Finally, Darcy begins to look around. Not just at him, or at the floor, but actually at the space. Turning in a slow circle, she doesn't hide her inspection (though it's without apparent judgement or any real scrutiny, just cursory), giving him her back. It serves as a chance for her to make a face at her behavior, and at her own expense, unobserved. "Would you mind if I-" The last portion of whatever she was about to say is bitten off. She's attempting a much more casual affect when she looks over her shoulder to Severus again. "Maybe I should go back to my room."
50000volts: (uncertain)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my gosh, Sev. Why do you give these openings? You know not what you do.

Urge to grab his shoulders and shake him aside, Darcy shrugs, turning bodily toward him again. "I'm not sure." She could lie, tell him yeah, she'll be fine, but she also expects he would see right through that. Honesty seems to be the smarter move in this case. "But I probably shouldn't keep imposing." Because that's clearly what this is. Right.
50000volts: (seriously bummed)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
Creepy, but she'd have totally gone for it, considering she nearly asked it herself.

It would be so easy to say no, and take the walk to clear her head. But the truth is that she doesn't want to walk alone. Not after that. "Yeah. That'd be great, actually. I mean, if you don't mind."
50000volts: (hurting)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
Walking together was a terrifically terrible idea, Darcy has decided after they make it about ten paces from his door. Her mind is racing, but she isn't dwelling on the thought of facing down a werewolf, so she has to suppose that's some sort of improvement. Even if her thoughts consist of how much she'd like him to push her up against the nearest wall, and how spectacularly unlikely that is to ever happen in her entire life. It will pass, she knows. She's pent up, full of nervous energy, and she just needs a way to blow off that steam. Sleep it off, Darc'.

Oh, is that the lift? Wonder what he thinks about her sudden silence. Maybe he's grateful for it, or maybe he thinks she's just that rattled still. And useless speculation isn't doing anything to pierce that silence. When the doors close, and they're on their way up, she purses her lips momentarily in determination. "Can you teach me how to deal with it? How to handle someone changing?"
50000volts: (frustrated)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-13 08:21 am (UTC)(link)
This is all for the best. Him being ignorant, that is. If Darcy knew it had been three years since his last kiss, she'd definitely have to remedy that as her civic duty. Especially given that she counts herself safely amongst the not deranged population, thank you very much.

Not that this is the time. This really isn't the time, in fact. She curses herself for sticking to the gravely serious matter at hand, rather than continuing to deflect, but is able to remind that it's important.

"I'd like that." Her face scrunches up for a second. "I mean, I'd like knowing how to do that. I hope I'd never have to actually do it."
50000volts: (:I)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-18 10:14 am (UTC)(link)
Clearly she needs to look into boosting her signal. Stupid boy.

"It seems like the sort of thing people would rather sweep under the rug and pretend it's not a problem, I think." That's not terribly charitable, especially considering that she's new, but it's not like she doesn't understand human nature.
50000volts: (are you there vodka? it's me darsy)

[personal profile] 50000volts 2014-06-18 10:51 am (UTC)(link)
Darcy finds the concern and the comfort flattering, but is in possession of just enough sense not to admit as much. "Makes sense," is much easier to say. And about a thousand times less awkward for the both of them.

When they arrive outside her room finally, she fidgets at the door. "Well, this is me." It sounds lame coming out of her mouth, and she doesn't quite stop the wince that accompanies the desire to be able to go back in time just a few seconds so she can take it back. Say something way more smooth than that. "I, ah..." Well, don't start now or anything. "Thanks. Again. For probably the billionth time, and it's still not enough." Jesus, Darcy. She catches herself staring at his mouth and snaps her eyes back up just a little too quickly to shrug that off entirely. "If you wanted to check up on me later... That would be okay."

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