You're not meant to feel grateful. This place isn't doing you a favor. You can feel angry, both at this place and what's happened to you, and you can be happy to see your son and know these people; we're living beings, we can multitask. But fuck feeling grateful. We're being used. Take what good you can at knifepoint and don't apologize for anything.
You make me feel less declawed as late. I don't think I can stop being angry anymore, anyway. It's always there now, I gave up on not being angry. I am happy with what good I've gotten from the place. I don't feel guilty for being glad to have things settled, either.
[ I'm happy I've gotten time to spend with you, she doesn't quite add, but the implication is clear enough there anyway. ]
I don't know yet. I briefly considered finding the least-densely populated area possible, [ They have been driving her that nuts. ] but it isn't feasible in the long-term for me to do that.
If I wasn't a department head I'd still be on level 28, to be honest. I had 10 to myself until last jump aside from Draco, but the two idiots who moved in keep to themselves at least.
[ I mean she knows plenty of Muggles!!! None that meet those name requirements, though. ]
I think you made a good choice, in any case. I'm of the mind to ask if you'd mind terribly my encroaching on the floor, though I'd probably steer clear of any idiots about.
[ It's easily parsed as a joke like that, ha ha, but she really means it, because seriously, she needs a break. PS answer honestly, not just humoring her because she's her. ]
[ Silent almost-panic. Severus is suddenly glad he decided not to use the voice option mid-convo, as they often will. It's not that he wouldn't want to be around her more (despite all his noble intentions when she first arrived, he's caved entirely), that he wouldn't want her away from the Marauders and their braindead fan club, but it feels like--
The closer they become the more it'll hurt when it falls apart. ]
Of course I wouldn't mind. You might get sick of Draco skulking about pretending I don't know he's there, though.
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[ I'm happy I've gotten time to spend with you, she doesn't quite add, but the implication is clear enough there anyway. ]
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[ ... For this hell, anyway, and what they've made of it. ]
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[ The thank you for listening to me while I'm going kinda nuts is only implied, so you can't complain about it Severus, so there. ]
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I'm a mess. Maybe we all are in parts.
Has it been alright? On 005.
[ The liars, the muggles, the drama queens... And Claire, who is none of those things. ]
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We definitely all are in parts. I don't think it's possible to not be, here.
It's been stressful, lately. More than I originally anticipated.
[ Claire is fine. It's everyone else that's making her equal parts stressed out and exasperated. ]
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It makes for a nice daydream though, once in a while.
[ SHE DOESN'T SERIOUSLY CONSIDER AIRLOCKING ANYONE, SHE'S TOO NICE. But. ]
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Hmm, I'm sure.
It's really fine, though, I hope. Tolerable at least.
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Mostly. I'm guilty of not doing much except work and sleep as late, though, so that could be part of it.
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I'm not trying to sound like your mum, I promise.
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I've considered moving, I think a little distance could be beneficial.
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Do you have an idea where? Medbay coworkers?
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I don't know yet. I briefly considered finding the least-densely populated area possible, [ They have been driving her that nuts. ] but it isn't feasible in the long-term for me to do that.
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Though if they keep to themselves, that's a moot point anyway.
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[ But Severus knows who they are anyway, because... Severus. ]
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[ I mean she knows plenty of Muggles!!! None that meet those name requirements, though. ]
I think you made a good choice, in any case. I'm of the mind to ask if you'd mind terribly my encroaching on the floor, though I'd probably steer clear of any idiots about.
[ It's easily parsed as a joke like that, ha ha, but she really means it, because seriously, she needs a break. PS answer honestly, not just humoring her because she's her. ]
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The closer they become the more it'll hurt when it falls apart. ]
Of course I wouldn't mind. You might get sick of Draco skulking about pretending I don't know he's there, though.
[ Or. Severus. She might get sick of Severus. ]
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