It's a lot of work for something that I won't remember if I leave.
( that's not (entirely) self-pity (contrary to what kate bishop seemed to think), that's a genuine concern. severus and people like him are on borrowed time, but the rest of them are on, what? something outside of it entirely. it's something to do, yeah, but he doesn't want to kid himself it means anything when empirical evidence points strongly to the contrary. )
It's a lot of work to bury a spark of possibility deep into your subconscious that wouldn't be there otherwise, it's a lot of work for the ability to shove it in the face of whomever lied to you and say 'It's feasible, you miserable bastard.'
Logistically speaking, if you never leave, did you ever come here at all? I'm out with the highschoolers by a couple years. Does that mean they're guaranteed to get out, or that it really doesn't matter either way?
( he's not trying to argue a point, he's frustrated by how little he understands it and how balls crazy it is in the first place. )
I was here before. I don't remember it because the last time, I was older. Possibly already dead. People from my world have come and gone. Older, younger, remembering, not remembering. No consistency except one thing: the story never changes.
Our individual experiences are linear, but reality isn't.
That is the opposite of what you just said to me, man. I mean, I know which one I'd rather believe, but the arguments against the second are compelling.
It is in no way the opposite. If I learn how to make lasagna here, and I don't remember it when I get back, I'm still completely capable of learning how to make lasagna.
I'm gonna let my previous statements speak for themselves.
( if harry has any ~feelings~ about that post, they're mainly, you know, about himself, peter, gwen. annoyance that he let himself be publicly vulnerable in any way. remorse for his actual behaviour towards the people who spoke to him, nah. like whatever. he pulled his punches with the real tragic cases. )
Easy fixes are a con. We're talking about the life's work my father didn't even fucking achieve.
( he's desperate enough to do something incredibly stupid when cornered, not deluded. which is almost worse, maybe. at this point in time, back home, peter is counting on the fact that harry is doing what he thinks he'll do: use the resources at his disposal to actually do the work needed, buying peter time and maybe actually getting himself somewhere.
and if not for snidely fucking whiplash, it might work. unfortunately, when harry is cornered, why go home when you can go hard? )
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( that's not (entirely) self-pity (contrary to what kate bishop seemed to think), that's a genuine concern. severus and people like him are on borrowed time, but the rest of them are on, what? something outside of it entirely. it's something to do, yeah, but he doesn't want to kid himself it means anything when empirical evidence points strongly to the contrary. )
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And you're using an important word, there.
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( like specifically gwen totally once said that to him. )
Which one is that.
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[ Remember, Harry, you could be stuck here forfuckingever. ]
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( he's not trying to argue a point, he's frustrated by how little he understands it and how balls crazy it is in the first place. )
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( he would genuinely like to know because at least that would provide some kind of frame of reference for him to work with. )
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Anecdata on this place doesn't point to anything promising.
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Our individual experiences are linear, but reality isn't.
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( harry's social skills are very american malfoy, severus observed well. )
Yeah. Okay.
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Easy fixes don't exist. You'll have to suffer and bleed for it no matter what.
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( if harry has any ~feelings~ about that post, they're mainly, you know, about himself, peter, gwen. annoyance that he let himself be publicly vulnerable in any way. remorse for his actual behaviour towards the people who spoke to him, nah. like whatever. he pulled his punches with the real tragic cases. )
Easy fixes are a con. We're talking about the life's work my father didn't even fucking achieve.
( he's desperate enough to do something incredibly stupid when cornered, not deluded. which is almost worse, maybe. at this point in time, back home, peter is counting on the fact that harry is doing what he thinks he'll do: use the resources at his disposal to actually do the work needed, buying peter time and maybe actually getting himself somewhere.
and if not for snidely fucking whiplash, it might work. unfortunately, when harry is cornered, why go home when you can go hard? )
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( he will.
eventually.
he hasn't actually got out of bed yet.
possibly since that post. )