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SEVERUS SNAPE

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[darkart]

How would you feel if you didn't take 'meant to' into consideration?

[lightmagic]

Relieved.

Cornered.

[darkart]

What's trapping you?

[lightmagic]

People go home and that frightens me.

[darkart]

[ It takes him longer than he'd like to come up with anything for that. ]

I wish it was in my power to have a less abysmally ineffective pool of possible assurances.

[lightmagic]

I'm meant to feel grateful for what I get, but all I can think of is I don't want it to end. I know nothing good can come of a ship like this but it isn't as though I have other options.

I appreciate the fact that you don't try to use the ineffective assurances anyway.

[ She feels bad for dumping it on him like that, but at the same time, that's part of why she felt comfortable coming to him with it. ]

[darkart]

You're not meant to feel grateful. This place isn't doing you a favor. You can feel angry, both at this place and what's happened to you, and you can be happy to see your son and know these people; we're living beings, we can multitask. But fuck feeling grateful. We're being used. Take what good you can at knifepoint and don't apologize for anything.

[lightmagic]

You make me feel less declawed as late. I don't think I can stop being angry anymore, anyway. It's always there now, I gave up on not being angry. I am happy with what good I've gotten from the place. I don't feel guilty for being glad to have things settled, either.

[ I'm happy I've gotten time to spend with you, she doesn't quite add, but the implication is clear enough there anyway. ]

[darkart]

Then you're doing all right.

[ ... For this hell, anyway, and what they've made of it. ]

[lightmagic]

That's all I can ask for.

[ The thank you for listening to me while I'm going kinda nuts is only implied, so you can't complain about it Severus, so there. ]

[darkart]

If you need anything.

[lightmagic]

You're the first person I'll come to.

[darkart]

And I'll be here.

[lightmagic]

I know. You've been the biggest constant for me here.

[darkart]

[ Do you always have to punch him right in the feelings, Lily. ]

I'm a mess. Maybe we all are in parts.

Has it been alright? On 005.

[ The liars, the muggles, the drama queens... And Claire, who is none of those things. ]

[lightmagic]

[ MAYBE. :( ]

We definitely all are in parts. I don't think it's possible to not be, here.

It's been stressful, lately. More than I originally anticipated.

[ Claire is fine. It's everyone else that's making her equal parts stressed out and exasperated. ]

[darkart]

Would you like me to have someone killed?

[lightmagic]

To be perfectly honest, I've had some flights of fancy relating to airlocks lately.

[darkart]

The idea of airlocks really is funny, isn't it.

[lightmagic]

Very much so.

It makes for a nice daydream though, once in a while.

[ SHE DOESN'T SERIOUSLY CONSIDER AIRLOCKING ANYONE, SHE'S TOO NICE. But. ]

[darkart]

[ Whatever, Sev knows your secret temper, Lily Evans. ]

Hmm, I'm sure.

It's really fine, though, I hope. Tolerable at least.

[lightmagic]

[ It's true. She's cultivated her niceness here though!! She only REALLY considered the implications of airlocking that one elf, okay. ]

Mostly. I'm guilty of not doing much except work and sleep as late, though, so that could be part of it.

[darkart]

All right.

I'm not trying to sound like your mum, I promise.

[lightmagic]

It's fine, you don't sound like an over-worrying mum.

I've considered moving, I think a little distance could be beneficial.

[darkart]

I'll earnestly believe you.

Do you have an idea where? Medbay coworkers?